Another day.

Time seems to be moving so slowly anymore.

I talked to Justin last night again, I was still searching for answers. I know what everyone says the answers are, but I wanted to hear it from him. I didn't get much more than what I had before. I can't ask him anymore...if he can't talk to me when we are together, or even apart, he can't ever talk to me. I have to let it go.

God gave me peace last night, that helped so much. I slept from 10-5 without waking up. That was a blessing, you take sleep for granted until you are missing it. Same thing with food for that matter. I couldn't eat for days, my gums were bleeding, I was in bad shape. My mom is pushing vitamins down me to help my body, and I think it is helping somewhat. But, last night, I ate. It wasn't a lot, but I am thankful for anything at this point.

It is so weird how you can't eat or sleep unless you are doing it with the person that you love. Food doesn't have the same appeal...and sleeping alone is a horrible feeling, of you're not used to it. All of that was making me physically sick (my body was in bad shape). So I prayed and prayed for peace that surpasses all understanding....and I know I had many other people praying...and last night I could do both, eat and sleep.

Baby steps. That is all I can say right now.

Thanks again for everyone's love and support, it means so much to me. I have never felt so unloved in my life after Justin left me...but with all of these people coming out to help me, I know someone loves me.